Wednesday, January 16, 2008

In A Coma

Coma…

One word…too many descriptions in various disciplines.

In astronomy, a coma is a diffuse, luminous cloud of dust and gas that develops around a comet's nucleus as it nears the sun.

In medicine, it is a state of deep, often prolonged unconsciousness, usually the result of injury, disease, or poison, in which an individual is incapable of sensing or responding to external stimuli and internal needs.

In liberal arts, it was once a Polish rock band and a 1978 mystery film based on the novel of the same name by Robin Cook..

As I said, one simple word…too much definition…

On my part, I would describe a state of coma as somewhat more complicated than all the definitions above combined. It varies from one’s personal experience to another. There you go, that’s what makes it complicated.. Personal experiences.

Now, how do I describe my coma experience?

Envision yourself in a roomful of people, wait..not just people..but people who matters. You’re having those usual let’s get-together and catch up with each other’s lives kind of thing. Everyone’s so bubbly and energetic, then suddenly, you feel like you’ve been hit pointblank by nil. Yup..zero.. You’re physically there but you can’t seem to feel your own presence. You stare into space, that little black space between your ego and superego, and you become catatonic for a while. Being in the middle of things and just watching them fly by. I mean it literally, you have eyes to witness the things going on around you but you don’t really care. Out of the blue, you’ve stopped caring. Nothing you hear or see could snap you back to the surface of the happy crowd.

That’s coma.. An undeniable numbness of one’s being.

Coma is just one animosity in life…there are so many that we either choose to ignore (and simply go on with our monotonous lives) or we choose to step back, examine ourselves, acknowledge the coma and embrace whatever’ s instigating it. Confronting comas may not be a delightful happening in our lives, but it’s one that we are sure to benefit from.

How about you? What’s your coma experience?