I was looking for a feel-good poem for a friend when I chanced upon this one... striking...
We talked,
We walked,
for a Moment in Time.
You passed through my life that day and left your mark.
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay for a lifetime.
No matter what,
I want to say thank you for the impression you made
that will stay with me for eternity.
I enjoyed the walk,
I enjoyed the talk.
I am blessed for that moment in time.
The first time I saw you I knew you would affect my life,
though your role I did not know.
I asked myself, "Why is he alone?
Why does he sit so quiet, all alone?
Is he sad?
Is he glad to be alone?
Is he alone?
Is he lonely? "
There is so much I want to know.
I asked myself, "Why him?
When so many people pass through my life each day,
why him? "
What attracts me to you?
What makes me want to know more?
I want to know.
Even if my questions are never answered,
There is one thing I want you to know.
I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that
Moment in Time.
Showing posts with label Relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Relationships. Show all posts
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
When A Friend Needs Me....
"If there's someone I know who can make her laugh... that's you"
It's 4:00 in the morning. I just got home.. I'm so tired and would like to hibernate the entire weekend. But I won't. Someone needs the biggest hug she can get from her friends and that's what I'll be doing later.
The 'quoted en toto' sentence above is actually a wake up call. A realization that no matter how fast my life goes and how crazy it gets, I still have a responsibility to my friends. Sometimes, a phone call or a text message, not even the understanding that you're always thinking and praying for them is never enough. One day, someday, you still need to get together and give comfort to those who need it.
No matter where we are, what we do, who we are with... we always manage to make the best of our time together. I love these girls so much because they bring out the best in me and they, oh so naturally, help me enjoy the simple indispensable things in life.
See you girls later.....
It's 4:00 in the morning. I just got home.. I'm so tired and would like to hibernate the entire weekend. But I won't. Someone needs the biggest hug she can get from her friends and that's what I'll be doing later.
The 'quoted en toto' sentence above is actually a wake up call. A realization that no matter how fast my life goes and how crazy it gets, I still have a responsibility to my friends. Sometimes, a phone call or a text message, not even the understanding that you're always thinking and praying for them is never enough. One day, someday, you still need to get together and give comfort to those who need it.
(Bantayan, Cebu 2009)
I've been blessed with a lot of amazing friends... It's time to give back to them the unconditional support, understanding and loyalty they have given during my darkest hours..
No matter where we are, what we do, who we are with... we always manage to make the best of our time together. I love these girls so much because they bring out the best in me and they, oh so naturally, help me enjoy the simple indispensable things in life.
See you girls later.....
Friday, December 25, 2009
Your Wish is Granted
Someone, for his own selfish reasons, asked me to forget him. I asked why and he couldn't give a sufficient answer...all he said was "because everything will change from now on..."
So when I got this irrational request, I replied: "If you don't want to remember me, go ahead and forget..but don't ask me to do the same thing".. to this he replied: "I will never forget you".. So where did this stupid conversation came from and why did it ever surfaced? Only he will know.
I believe myself to be a woman of reason. If you ask me something and it's in my power to grant and fair to all.. why not? I refused the request not because I don't want to forget him. At that time, I just couldn't find an answer to the question "why would I do that?". People, no matter how rude they've been to you, how sweet or caring, or how insignificant, cannot be forgotten in an instant. Our brain doesn't have an on/off button or a tick box that will allow you to mark just those you need to remember.. I wish it does, God knows there are some people I would have loved to forget I've ever met. Unfortunately, things don't go that way. You have to wait for that waking moment wherein your intuition and brain would recognize that... "this person's space in your memory has expired.. you can now gladly forget" ---> at least my brain does this.
For this person, the time has come....
Now, I finally understood the reason behind the request. It wasn't for me. It was more like telling himself that everything will change and he needs to forget... to make things easier for him, he needs to dispose of irrelevant people.
Oh well, as mentioned, I, too, can concede... I am letting your memory go... go in peace...
"For a while, I thought I understood you..."
So when I got this irrational request, I replied: "If you don't want to remember me, go ahead and forget..but don't ask me to do the same thing".. to this he replied: "I will never forget you".. So where did this stupid conversation came from and why did it ever surfaced? Only he will know.
I believe myself to be a woman of reason. If you ask me something and it's in my power to grant and fair to all.. why not? I refused the request not because I don't want to forget him. At that time, I just couldn't find an answer to the question "why would I do that?". People, no matter how rude they've been to you, how sweet or caring, or how insignificant, cannot be forgotten in an instant. Our brain doesn't have an on/off button or a tick box that will allow you to mark just those you need to remember.. I wish it does, God knows there are some people I would have loved to forget I've ever met. Unfortunately, things don't go that way. You have to wait for that waking moment wherein your intuition and brain would recognize that... "this person's space in your memory has expired.. you can now gladly forget" ---> at least my brain does this.
For this person, the time has come....
Now, I finally understood the reason behind the request. It wasn't for me. It was more like telling himself that everything will change and he needs to forget... to make things easier for him, he needs to dispose of irrelevant people.
Oh well, as mentioned, I, too, can concede... I am letting your memory go... go in peace...
"For a while, I thought I understood you..."
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Lost and Forgotten
From you.........
you may not understand this now but you will soon forget not the times we giggled together forget the times we fought will this be the end? a beginning i hope something new maybe something will change will it be you? will it be me? all i know is until here i'm waiting for thee ...the forgotten one.
From me............
When will i understand?, i will never know..maybe someday, oneday But this i vow, Never will i forget those times we giggled together or otherwise the times we fought and made up. It may be the end something i hope this time, we are done waiting Surely, it is a beginning.. of what exactly? nobody knows..................
.......you may feel forgotten, but you never are. you are here with me, at work, at home, ask everyone, they'll tell you how much i adore you.. .
......the lost one..loving the forgotten one....
you may not understand this now but you will soon forget not the times we giggled together forget the times we fought will this be the end? a beginning i hope something new maybe something will change will it be you? will it be me? all i know is until here i'm waiting for thee ...the forgotten one.
From me............
When will i understand?, i will never know..maybe someday, oneday But this i vow, Never will i forget those times we giggled together or otherwise the times we fought and made up. It may be the end something i hope this time, we are done waiting Surely, it is a beginning.. of what exactly? nobody knows..................
.......you may feel forgotten, but you never are. you are here with me, at work, at home, ask everyone, they'll tell you how much i adore you.. .
......the lost one..loving the forgotten one....
Saying Goodbye
Saying "goodbye" too soon......
Every single day, I am looking forward to meeting you halfway. Whatever means we have to make what we have work out....chatting, texting, calls....everything is a give and take routine. I don't mind even if i still don't know my place in your life. I'm sure i've given you a hint or two about making the big gesture just so i'll know my place. Am i your friend? Your ka-MU perhaps? or just the girl you have strong feelings for but is not yet ready to have a commitment with?
Sometimes i wonder if you're thinking of my sensibilities or yours. Sometimes i think that you did believe me when i said that if you take away the pain, the anger, and all the disappointments you'll find that you still love her after all the hurt she's put you through. I feel that not just because that is how i am trained to look at things, at human behavior and processes... i know that because that is exactly what i'll tell myself if i were in your position. I know i have a special place in your heart...you always say that you're keeping an open mind and heart about "US".
When i asked if you think that what we have right now will eventually lead to something serious...you said you certainly hope so..but how long will i wait? should i wait?..you said a year perhaps....i said ten years...you said that's too long...i said a year is longer... Let me tell you why i said so.. I believe that ten years seems sooner than a year because technically it's too long that you won't count every grueling days of the whole time. You won't wake up every morning wishing that the year is over...you won't waste your time waiting for every holiday to come because you know that when the valentines day, all saints day and christmas are over it will be another year. Ten years is much more acceptable for me because eventually i'll find a way to divert my attention to more productive things..within a month or two of that ten years, i would have accomplished more than what i can in a year's waiting period... then i'll wake up one day and realize that hey! it's the tenth year! This is the day!
You've been very consistent.. very consistent indeed.... But tonight... i was hurt. I told you my plans of leaving. Honestly, i dont know how i'll tell you. Especially when you're taking your sweet time in our semi-pseudo relationship. You told me to just be myself..so i spat it out...i said i might go somewhere to study. I'm sure i'll touch a sensitive spot because im going somewhere that is the core reason of your breakup...the place where the person you loved, probably still love, is. And i have the audacity to tell you this when i know it'll affect you.. i know it's not me.. im thinking that you might see this as adding insult to your injury but i dont mean that. I just want you to know. I dont want to hide it from you. I was hurt because, honestly, i am hoping you'll say something like....i'll wait...we'll make it work...nothing will change between us..we'll be stronger. None of that came out. You just said go for it, you may find better opportunities there, in life you have to make decisions that entails certain sacrifices.
I'm hurt because i don't really know what you think of my going away...you don't even hinted if this thing that we have will continue..if you have plans of making it work or what..just forget about about me. I sensed in your one-liners that you're affected, not because im going but because it makes you think of her...call me paranoid but i have a great intuition. Then you just said, i need to try to get some rest....not very like you. Im hurt! i dont see my value..... Will this coldness be the deciding factor in this fairytale story? i'll give you a day or two to tell me that you'll pray for me...for my success..but you can't wait or you think that it will no longer work or that my decision is somewhat similar to HER decision and I'm just like her. I know you're too sensible to say these things . no matter how hard you try to hide it, i'll feel it....surely i will, and i know i'll hurt...
i just want to make you happy. I know i can, how can i assure you that being there won't change a thing.we'll still be far from each other. you can think that im still here. Maybe for the first month i wont have any access to a phone or a computer, but i'll find a way. we'll find a way. I believe in you but now, im not so confident that you're willing to take another risk. Does this mean i'll be saying goodbye again? sooner than i'd ever imagine? sooner even if i don't want to? You said, you'll stay unless i tell you to go away....Does this still stand? I want to tell you all these things, i was hoping tonight, but you left earlier than i predicted. you didnt want to hear anymore, as my explanation to your sudden need to get a rest,... Im just saying it here because i know i wont dare try to mention it to you again. I've been open to you ever since...this time, im making you open up first.
If you really want to make this work..we'll work on it together, but if you'll make me feel that there's something wrong between us na...i wont hesitate to tell you to stay away. I do not want to pressure you to go into another relationship after your recent breakup.... but don't make me wait if you're not willing to do the same. Wherever i am, it will not change what i want, i know what i want.... i hope you do too.. you regretted letting me go once..i wonder if you'll volunteer to let go this time......please don't keep me in suspense long. right now, im very much open to what you might say.
Every single day, I am looking forward to meeting you halfway. Whatever means we have to make what we have work out....chatting, texting, calls....everything is a give and take routine. I don't mind even if i still don't know my place in your life. I'm sure i've given you a hint or two about making the big gesture just so i'll know my place. Am i your friend? Your ka-MU perhaps? or just the girl you have strong feelings for but is not yet ready to have a commitment with?
Sometimes i wonder if you're thinking of my sensibilities or yours. Sometimes i think that you did believe me when i said that if you take away the pain, the anger, and all the disappointments you'll find that you still love her after all the hurt she's put you through. I feel that not just because that is how i am trained to look at things, at human behavior and processes... i know that because that is exactly what i'll tell myself if i were in your position. I know i have a special place in your heart...you always say that you're keeping an open mind and heart about "US".
When i asked if you think that what we have right now will eventually lead to something serious...you said you certainly hope so..but how long will i wait? should i wait?..you said a year perhaps....i said ten years...you said that's too long...i said a year is longer... Let me tell you why i said so.. I believe that ten years seems sooner than a year because technically it's too long that you won't count every grueling days of the whole time. You won't wake up every morning wishing that the year is over...you won't waste your time waiting for every holiday to come because you know that when the valentines day, all saints day and christmas are over it will be another year. Ten years is much more acceptable for me because eventually i'll find a way to divert my attention to more productive things..within a month or two of that ten years, i would have accomplished more than what i can in a year's waiting period... then i'll wake up one day and realize that hey! it's the tenth year! This is the day!
You've been very consistent.. very consistent indeed.... But tonight... i was hurt. I told you my plans of leaving. Honestly, i dont know how i'll tell you. Especially when you're taking your sweet time in our semi-pseudo relationship. You told me to just be myself..so i spat it out...i said i might go somewhere to study. I'm sure i'll touch a sensitive spot because im going somewhere that is the core reason of your breakup...the place where the person you loved, probably still love, is. And i have the audacity to tell you this when i know it'll affect you.. i know it's not me.. im thinking that you might see this as adding insult to your injury but i dont mean that. I just want you to know. I dont want to hide it from you. I was hurt because, honestly, i am hoping you'll say something like....i'll wait...we'll make it work...nothing will change between us..we'll be stronger. None of that came out. You just said go for it, you may find better opportunities there, in life you have to make decisions that entails certain sacrifices.
I'm hurt because i don't really know what you think of my going away...you don't even hinted if this thing that we have will continue..if you have plans of making it work or what..just forget about about me. I sensed in your one-liners that you're affected, not because im going but because it makes you think of her...call me paranoid but i have a great intuition. Then you just said, i need to try to get some rest....not very like you. Im hurt! i dont see my value..... Will this coldness be the deciding factor in this fairytale story? i'll give you a day or two to tell me that you'll pray for me...for my success..but you can't wait or you think that it will no longer work or that my decision is somewhat similar to HER decision and I'm just like her. I know you're too sensible to say these things . no matter how hard you try to hide it, i'll feel it....surely i will, and i know i'll hurt...
i just want to make you happy. I know i can, how can i assure you that being there won't change a thing.we'll still be far from each other. you can think that im still here. Maybe for the first month i wont have any access to a phone or a computer, but i'll find a way. we'll find a way. I believe in you but now, im not so confident that you're willing to take another risk. Does this mean i'll be saying goodbye again? sooner than i'd ever imagine? sooner even if i don't want to? You said, you'll stay unless i tell you to go away....Does this still stand? I want to tell you all these things, i was hoping tonight, but you left earlier than i predicted. you didnt want to hear anymore, as my explanation to your sudden need to get a rest,... Im just saying it here because i know i wont dare try to mention it to you again. I've been open to you ever since...this time, im making you open up first.
If you really want to make this work..we'll work on it together, but if you'll make me feel that there's something wrong between us na...i wont hesitate to tell you to stay away. I do not want to pressure you to go into another relationship after your recent breakup.... but don't make me wait if you're not willing to do the same. Wherever i am, it will not change what i want, i know what i want.... i hope you do too.. you regretted letting me go once..i wonder if you'll volunteer to let go this time......please don't keep me in suspense long. right now, im very much open to what you might say.
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