Moment in Time by Cynthia Kepp

I was looking for a feel-good poem for a friend when I chanced upon this one... striking...


We talked,
We walked,
for a Moment in Time.

You passed through my life that day and left your mark.
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay for a lifetime.

No matter what,
I want to say thank you for the impression you made
that will stay with me for eternity.

I enjoyed the walk,
I enjoyed the talk.
I am blessed for that moment in time.

The first time I saw you I knew you would affect my life,
though your role I did not know.
I asked myself, "Why is he alone?
Why does he sit so quiet, all alone?
Is he sad?
Is he glad to be alone?
Is he alone?
Is he lonely? "
There is so much I want to know.

 
I asked myself, "Why him?
When so many people pass through my life each day,
why him? "

What attracts me to you?
What makes me want to know more?
I want to know.

Even if my questions are never answered,
There is one thing I want you to know.
I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that
Moment in Time.

Declaration of Love

I'm in love with my bestfriend --> Czarina. She's my aikane.

I'm not a lesbian.. I just want to express how much I love her. We've been bestfriends for 10 years... and we've spent more than half of those years on opposite sides of the globe. Still, I wouldn't be where I am now if it weren't for her. She keeps me sane and grounded.

Today's advice is:

"Make sure you've resolved your issues. May it be family, friends or love life. Make sure you have nothing else to regret, no ifs nor buts. Then, wherever you go, everything will be great"

I miss my friends....

It's been a while since I spent time with my friends... I feel awful because I miss them so much but I don't have time to be with them. I miss my bestfriend Czan, who's in the States right now. I'm sure she's worried sick that I haven't sent an SMS or email in the past few weeks. We've been keeping our bestfriendship alive through SMS, emails, and occasional phone calls. Somehow, that's enough for us because despite our distance we know in ourselves and in our hearts that wherever we are, we're looking out for each other. I hope the next time we see each other is in a very big event that will change our lives forever.. Or maybe, i'll be the one to visit her in California.

I miss my girlfriends, Glecie and Wena. They've been my strongest support system for the past years. I think we've surpassed that just-close friends stage. They are more like bestfriends and sisters to me. They make me laugh all the time. They take care of me. They offer their unconditional support and love. I love them both so much! I feel so blessed having them as friends and sisters. Everything in me, they've seen it. They've seen me at my best and worst and they're always there for me.

My sisters at heart, Tina, Cess, and Patty. We have a different kind of sisterhood. Tina and myself are both based in Manila, I'm a working girl while Tina just got back in school; bless her. Cess, migrated to Australia where her husband Ned is; and Patty's working in Singapore with her boyfriend, Edward. We communicate through emails everyday, we talk about girly things, plans, our future. I call them my sisters because they have always been like that to me when we were all here in Manila. We look out after each other. We offer sisterly advices and support. Comfort and Laughter are abundant when a sister badly needs it. I remember how Tina, Cesski and I used to spend our days at the dorm. We would have dinner together in their room then we'd watch dvds or just talk the night away. Now, we only do that through emails. Still, I'm happy because our relationship is still strong and the sisterhood is ever so alive. Lately though, I havent sent them emails. Sorry sisters, I know you understand my situation.

My boys..ahleks, james and joel. papa h too, of course. I miss them so much. They never fail to make me smile. I miss going to the movies with them. We play bowling together with Gles and Wenski. It's really fun. When I'm with them, I just feel safe and happy. I feel at home. I do miss that kind of feeling.

 

My other girls, Jami, Tanya, Ice, and Jhong. They've been my closest friends since college and highschool. We're still close now, I like the fact that when we get together, no matter how seldom that is, I always feel like we've just been together the previous day. The closeness and friendship doesn't change. Oh, and I should not forget mae, butch, jihan, core and pampers. They showed me the true meaning of friendship. Thank you girls.

I miss hanging out at malls. Invade the videoke booths at timezone. Binge on popcorn and cotton candy. Let loose and talk about anything under the sun. Laugh out loud. Grin like fools. Blabber to death.

I just miss the friendship. Next to my family, I value my friends more than anything else. Im glad that even though I don't have a boyfriend now. I have many special friends. I'm happy and contented. I feel loved. I give love. That's all that matters....

I miss you guys..

Silver Lining

A moment too long
Stuck in the deepest, darkest corner of being
Alone…
Lifeless..
Numb..
Then came you
Bitter endings and lies fade away
No more hiding..
No more fears..
Only you..
And the promise of a new beginning.

Found The Perfect Place To Be With You

At times when I’m riding the fickle waves of emotions, there is one person that I always wish to share the experience with, may it be a torrent of happiness, melancholy, or simply indifference, my aikane remains top of mind. 

To my one and only aikane….

Our relationship has evolved into something indivisible by neither absence, time nor distance. For over 8 years, we’ve struggled to find our individual selves.. wanting to find our worth in the world, and in the lives of the people we meet. You’re there while I’m here, but it will never alter the fact that we will always be aikanes no matter what. It won’t keep us from planning a day or two together.. seeking serenity and comfort.

A month ago, I told you that I’d rather spend by birthday with you.. I wanted to go to a place where we can just sit, watch the sunset and reminisce those times when we’re together. You felt the same way…Guess what?! I found it.. A perfect place where we can be ourselves.. Go back to that moment when nothing matters but the friendship that we’ve built and nurtured. When you come home, I promise to take you there…just the two of us…no more, no less…

On loving you…You are one of the most influential in my life. You are one of my idols. I idolize your strength and determination to show the world that one can arise victorious from any ordeal given that you set your heart to the task of winning. I love you for many many things, but mostly because you were never afraid of showing me the real you…scars, flaws and all… you never gave up on me… I will love you for the rest of my life..

Birthday Surprise... year 2006

When it happened…..June 27, 2006 

I know my illegitimate sisters have been cooking up something for me. They said so….haha! Funny coz they’re more excited about it than me. They can’t even wait to tell me that they have a surprise. I admit to liking surprises…i like giving them. The little things lang naman. But. I haven’t gotten much of it myself that I don’t know how to react. Honestly, I didn’t know what to feel when they told me about it. I’ve been conspiring to catch Tina off guard and reveal what they’re planning, but she’s as tight-lipped about it as a clam. Couldn’t extract any information! The day finally came, I remember donning my red low v-neck empire cut top from mint, paired with denims and black slip ons, wishing that the two aren’t up to some crazy out of this world racket, (but a blind date with a hottie was a welcome surprise..haha!)..Ttick tock, tick, tock – the clock strikes 5pm , (okay, Tina’s on her way already)… tick, tock, (5:35pm says emem’s digi clock) cling, cling….Huy! (Tina’s here!).. Pack-up Time!! Our adventure started the moment we passed the jolly jeep in front of Salon de Ken and they admitted that they’ll be taking me out on a date (well, it’s not how they said it, they said.. we’ll treat you to a movie and dinner, You won’t pay a centavo!, to me it’s pretty much like a date..hehehe). Flattered and embarrassed, that was what I felt. I thought it was really sweet of them, coz if I think about it, we didn’t really had a chance to go out on a movie together (well we have had dinner together while watching dvds at the dorm, I think it doesn’t count). I was embarrassed because I didn’t want them spending too much on me, I didn’t know how to tell them that and I just didn’t have the heart to do so because they were so excited. Haha! The funny thing is while on our way to greenbelt, we were snapping away some photos for the scrapbook they’re making for me (haha, guys I won’t pretend I don’t know it because nasabi nyo na din, I just hope the pictures turned out ok..haha!). Ces and I almost ran head straight in the middle of traffic just because we wanted a shot while crossing the street. That was when I started having fun and realized how much they’re getting out of their way to make me feel special and make me happy. It was an overwhelming realization. Off we go to watch Scary Movie 4, they bought me a popcorn; normally, I could finish a giant cheese flavored popcorn by myself before the movie ends, and as Alex witnessed what a sucker I am for popcorns he said matakaw ako..haha!, but, since they’re paying nahiya naman ako na magmadamot and cheerfully shared it with them. Though the movie was short and not as entertaining as the previous 3, I had good laughs too. After the movie, we went off to grab some dinner at Mann Hann, even asked Glecie’s advice on which to order (Chinese itesh)… We got Yang Chao, Chami and sweet & sour fish fillet. Can’t eat much coz we’re still full, thanks to the giant popcorn. While having dinner, I had so much fun chatting. Cess and I are in the same office but we rarely get a chance to chat since she came back coz I know how much work she’s been doing. Unfortunately, the place is closing already and the waiter volunteered on giving us the bill without us asking, so we guess it was time to go. It was bitin so we promised to have coffee some other time, definitely before I leave. Outside G4, it was time to go our separate ways.. Cess went off to where she can ride a Washington jeep while Tina and myself went the other way towards MRT.

I had a wonderful night. Thanks guys! Seeing a movie and having dinner might not be an out of the ordinary thing between friends but your purpose and effort in making it a lasting memory for three simple ladies like us is nowhere near extraordinary, it transcends exceptional and is simply historic for me. I may not be someone who deserves so much special attention or caring, but that night, I am so grateful for it. As I said, I am so used to making others feel special that I almost forgot how it felt. Thank you so much for letting me rediscover that heavenly feeling. I owe the two of you a lot. Sometime, somewhere, someday…we’ll meet again and I’m sure the bond we have (remember, you’re my illegitimate sisters) will always be there. One time, I’ll write a story of how the three of us met..haha! looking forward to it.